Posted by: hilltop ®
01/16/2004, 12:56:41
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Posted by: hilltop ®
01/16/2004, 13:07:26
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Posted by: hilltop ®
01/17/2004, 09:48:40
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Posted by: NAR ®
01/19/2004, 04:57:37
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We, on the other hand, are insignificant dung-beetles waiting to swallow his "processed" left-overs.
I remember, quite well actually, a time when he was talking about wearing his I'm-god-incarnate-costume. He said that he was the ultimate servant..... when he put on his "crown," we were riding in the top.... you know.... on his head, in the crown.
His deeds are proof of the falseness of these words. "By his fruits...." I hate to use bible verse here, but never a truer set of words were spoken than in this context. Since when did he serve any of us anything? When was the last time "we" were invited to ride in his plane? For as long as he's had it, we could have all had "seconds." When was the last time he asked "this sailor" (me) out on his yacht to ride the sea, as I so love to do? When was the last time he invited us over for dinner..... not to be the servants, but to be the served? Shoot, in my active premie days I would have given my left testicle to be invited to my lord's house to have a meal. When was the last time he actually went out of his way to see any of us or doing ANYTHING for us? Does the word NEVER come immediately to mind? I thought so.
By his fruits....... shit, even Jesus supposedly went to a tax collectors house to have a meal and talk with him...... and that was about the worst possible thing he could have done, from a Jewish point of view at the time..... tax collectors were unclean, but THAT tax collector "requested" his presence and he, a humble rabbi, apparently had no problem with it..... M won't even do THAT! I know, I asked many times...... he never came.
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Posted by: Cynthia ®
01/20/2004, 00:18:44
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Thanks again Hilltop,
Reading those words I remember how I felt when he spoke them to me while sitting in a crowd of premies, him in a custom made throne, giving signals to his back-stage servants. He made me weep in grief because he instilled the thoughts (yes, from my mind he was telling me not to use) in order to make me and thousands of others believe we would never be worthy of being a human being because he exists.
Rawat's game has always been to instill fear of him and especially the fear of leaving him. Even from the earliest days. "Shape up or ship out." "It's Time to Decide." Two potent fear-instilling tapes I still have.
Rawat's demeaning, ego-smashing, thought-killing words continuously made me and so many others feel as if we were nothing but dust on the road for him to walk upon. It's all so obvious to me now. Having left and placed so much distance between me and him, and now being able to read those words with a critically thinking mind makes it all so evident that his intentions never were anything but the tools (of a low-life conman with a lot of dough) that he used to please himself in any way he wanted to be pleased. Our money, and his women, drugs, alcohol, mansions, aircraft, and being serviced every minute of the day of his life as the Lord of the Universe. I think he really believes that of himself. He's got his own kids brainwashed, after all. Not to mention his wife.
Dung-beetles! He considered us even lower than that! Yet he had no problems taking our money, our minds, our spirituality, our lives, our hope and our youth, while he sat up on his throne, feet placed upon a silk pillow only to degrade us to the point of believing him when he said we were only dirt on a road for his Holy Lotus Feet to walk upon. And now un-lit matches. HA! The conman has been exposed!
It's all so obvious and transparent now to me. For being able to see that now, I am very grateful...
Keep those quotes coming, Hilltop. They are evidence.
Love,
Cynth
Modified by Cynthia at Tue, Jan 20, 2004, 00:33:33
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