Thursday July 19, 2007
2:32 PM
at work
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I am bored. I am bouncy today, and am having a hard time sitting still and getting any work done. I would rather be at a movie, or eating nachos, or hanging out with Patty. I would rather be in New York with my brother, sis in law and the kids. I would rather be sitting by the ocean next to a lighthouse, watching the sunset. I would rather be sitting on a cloud talking to my dad. I would rather be eating my grandma’s potato salad. I would rather be learning how to bake wheat bread. I would rather be doing a lot of things. But, I am at work, and have a meeting at 4:00 and have to earn a living. I love my job, I really honestly do. But just for today, I am going stir crazy.
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I have been having a hard time sleeping lately, so now I am tired. I toss and turn and them wake up groggy in the morning because of only getting a few hours sleep. I am going to ask Laura if she can adjust my medication.
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Sometimes I am grateful people can’t hear some of the thing which go through my head. I think some weird, rude, dumb, smart mouth things sometimes. I am happy that I have a choice in what I say and don’t say (most of the time.) I am also grateful that people can’t see what I do in the privacy of my own home, such as walking around naked or farting. Or singing loud, or talking to myself, or dancing, or sprawling out in front of the air conditioner when it’s hot.
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I feel loved today. It’s a good day for feeling mellow, even though I am restless.